this is a kind of proper blog post because it is something that is really annoying me at the moment and i need to write angrily about it.

i don’t understand why i feel i should lose weight. i’m not unhealthy, okay i’m unfit but that’s just because i barely do any excercise that can change. it doesn’t mean that i should feel that being a size 14 is too big, because it isn’t. it’s lower than the national average clothes size which is a fifteen. i’ve always been big, i was built this way. i’m supposed to be curvy and busty and have cushion for the pushing. i shouldn’t feel that my thighs shouldn’t touch and that i shouldn’t have a belly and that my bum is a bit big. it’s sad that i do. everyone i know is slimmer than me and i can’t help wishing that i was. i know that i have a good figure and my legs are nice and i have boobs that people pay for but the fact that i am chubby always makes me sad and it shouldn’t. that’s what i hate, the fact that everything around me tells me that i should be thin and having some extra weight means that i’m unhealthy and undesirable which it doesn’t do. that frame of mind is terrible and has horrid effects on people and i for one like being that way i am, but i still don’t feel like i can wear a bikini or short shorts without tights or short dresses without tights and i should feel ashamed of how i look. but i do.

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